567. The martyr
Life meals are sometimes bitter. It is not that everything is sweet as milk and honey. If you raised in happy family maybe life spared you from miserable moments, but the grudge will wait you later. Humans are on this world to taste fish oil because this is indicator of their firmness. Pain and sadness are not welcome guests, but some people will represent themselves as born to be unhappy. In some sick way, they enjoy to be martyrs, because this is the way to keep attention.
Do you know someone who is big martyr? Colleague from work, mother in law, your dear friend or even wife?
Typical day of every martyr starts like this:
" I must wash laundry because nobody will help me. I must cook lunch because my family will be hungry and they will yell on me. I must stay overtime at work because i will get fired if i don't do this. I can't watch my soap opera because my husband is watching football. I must make dinner for my guests because i owe them, last time me and husband were invited in their house. What they will think of me if i don't invite them for return?"
In the eyes of martyr everything is black. Life is one big pain and martyr is stigmatized person who must do all bad jobs, because others expect this from him. Everyone must give confession to martyr, that he is the person who were walking on thorns with his first steps.
What kind of problems martyr never solves?
Martyr is person in bad relation. He knows this, but he stays there anyway.
Martyr is woman who never get marry because she is afraid to get out from status quo situation.
Martyr is person who stays at bad work until retirement because everyone feels sorry for him and this is his kind of feed for soul.
Martyr is son who lives with his mother because he is not able to find a job and pay own flat.
Martyr is mother who cook meals and wash laundry for her adult kids because they could not do it alone.
Jade is woman with health problems. She takes pills , painkillers , because her pains in back are unbearable. She doesn't want to go to private doctor because she needs money for other things. She doesn't talk with her sister and brother for a 10 years, because they took her big part of family inheritance. She never forgive them how they acted at court when her father died. She is not without friends and people wish to help her, but she rejects every favor, because she doesn't want to be treated as poor woman. But, when someone ask her about her life, she used to say : " Everyone abandoned me. I don't have any help from people. They avoid me because i am old and poor. "
Martyr is kind of manipulator.
How does it happens?
Martyr use 4 kind of deadly weapons:
If you don't help martyr, you will feel guilty. If you feel guilty, your conscience will warn you and you will not sleep well. Then you start to feel condolence and your sense for empathy is awake.
That is how Helen did. She was old nasty widow. She had many people who were indeed her servants. One man brought her things from shopping mall every day. Other servant was woman who cooked her meals, for small money. The next was woman who was drinking whiskey with her and listened her problems, to make her company. Helen was nasty, but nobody complained, because she was old and helpless widow. That was her ticket for paradise, to be blessed as martyr. Once someone rejected to help her, and Helen said: "How can you be so cruel to old and weak lady as me? "
When someone acts as martyr, that is lack of self-respect . Also that shows laziness and conformism. Person will lean on others even she marked others as culprits. If you live with helpless mother in law or you work with colleague who never finish his work and you must to it for him , you share life with martyr. In this case you are servant, and they are masters. Read between lines when your colleague ask you to help him with unfinished task. " Help me, you know how to do this", indeed means " I don't want to do it alone because you will do it instead of me. "